Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Long time no blog

Andy said that to me. Not in those words but that's what he said. I think he wanted me to solve the gauntlet I laid down in my last post. Well I haven't. Nope. I've been thinking about it alot lately. The only thing I keep coming up with is fear. I am very afraid of women. But not in the traditional ways. I'm no longer really afraid a woman won't like me because well that would be like being afraid the sun might shine (too much work). I'm afraid that I'll really fall in love again. That totally weak and vulnerable can't plan out the course of my life alone anymore feeling. Most of my friends haven't been there yet, lucky bastards. It's actually like that "against the wind" song, "I wish I didn't know now what I didn't know then". I just quoted bob seeger, wow. Also, note from past, two best song re-writes "against the grain: I keep cutting against the grain." and "We didn't start the fire, we just lit a match and then we kind of dropped it."
But back to my fear. I'm afraid of women. There, stated and plain as day. Life is good otherwise. I'm pretty happy, well fed, and engaged in the world around me. but I have had a bunch of funny and poignant thoughts of late, they flit in and out of my brain. So the format of my weblog will change. There will still be these long winded semi-pointless rants. But I hope that at least twice a week I update with a small paragraph. Something along the lines of what's at the end of this post. By the by, as for Michelle. She's met a boy she's very into, and here's the real surprise ... IT's NOT JOSH!!!.
Speaking of Josh, we now come to the sad portion of our blog. My cat died. Duke is no more. After a wonderful party at the homestead my party guests stumbled upon the body of my cat. Josh, Jeremy, Ryan, and Daniel all helped me bury my cat and listened to the sarcastic joke coping mechanism that literally poured out of me. All four were wonderful and helpful. But Josh was exceedingly nice and reverant. I haven't often been impressed by a person's demeanor but Josh was really great about the whole thing. So to Josh, Jeremy, Ryan, Jenny, Anna and Daniel, thanks much, you're the best funeral party any cat has ever had. And had you not been around, it wouldn't have been unthinkable that I would still have a dead cat on my porch with no idea of what to do with it.
Jake

Note: RIP Duke Lewis Harding

further note: We buried the cat in the old pet cemetary in cataumet, so beware cute and cuddly zombie cat.